…and really the only thing that’s changed is that i’ve just felt stronger. and idk why i’m telling you all this, but it’s eating at me because i get to see her for about a week this summer and that’s it for another three years, i think. and ugh so much can happen and it scares me. i think? maybe she feels somewhat similar but i’m not sure, because lots of friends tell each other they love each other and she acts similar with other people, but i still have stupid hope. and anyways i’d be overjoyed if we started dating but i don’t know if i’d want it now because three years is a long time for a ldr and the fact that i’d never be able to see her or wake up next to her or make her coffee or just sit down and talk about our lives over dinner for that long would kill me. plus if we ever broke up i just don’t know ?? i couldn’t just be friends again and she tends to not talk to me for days on end just cause it’s who she is i dont know what to do tbh

omg i don’t even know what i would do in this situation. i tend to not let myself feel things for people to protect myself from getting hurt. i honestly don’t know how i do that and it’s probably not healthy but if i wouldn’t see the person for 3 years i probably would try to move on, but idk she sounds like she makes you really happy so my advice to you is just do what feels right to you. i’m sorry i wish i had something better to say but i hope you’re happy with whatever happens and i hope when you finally see her again it goes well :)

sleepover saturday sunday!

(just finishing these up from last night but keep sending me stuff if ya want)